Insomnia~

Tonight I'm definitely insomnia..The time now is 2:54 p.m., hearing smooth song and enjoying being alone. My feeling was so weird. Irritation? Confuse? I don't know ! My heart was unpeaceful, there was a lot of noise in my brain and plenty of words I want to scream out. Is it this is the reason I can't fall asleep? Yes, I think so.

I just want to be peaceful while in the midnight. I just want a friend that can hear my heart and know my feeling well. Oops! It's me-myself.

So, Tan E Teng. Go to sleep now. Be calm, be strong. You can gone through the bad time as you always believe that there will be a sunshine as darkness gone ^^

~~放手~~

曾经看过一套台湾连续剧，它是这么说的：“既然有些事情不能忘记，那就不要忘记。把它藏在记忆的某个角落。人因记忆而完美，生活因记忆而变得多姿多彩。”

这句话让我彻底的醒了。我终于明白了。

有些东西懂得放手是幸福的。

有些人选择忘记。遗忘一些他们不想记得的事情，这永远都不会是最好的方法！真的！

我想告诉他：“我无法忘记你，所以我要把你藏在记忆里。我知道我不能忘记我们曾经拥有的记忆，所以我希望能把这份美好的回忆封锁在记忆的某个角落。***，谢谢你。虽然我知道有些事情过了就不能再回头，不过我能向你保证的是你永远都是我的好朋友+老朋友。放手，是放过我们两个，对吗？好的。真心祝福你。”

~Meaningful night~

Few days ago, my primary school friend call me up and inform me that they will come to find me this wednesday (18/3/09) I'm so excited those few days while waiting for their invite.

The day was coming, about 6 p.m., they reach. Who is they? Actually got 3 person which is A suk, A fan & A Bong, they are all my secondary school friends. And the most important is all of them are very good people and damn funny. Oh, forget to say, my another friend Jin Long also join us. Well, come back to the topic. Actually we eat at 金饭碗 which is near my college (INTI), because A bong say he got eat there before and he feel that the foods there are quite nice (his taste is quite weird). But the reality is 4 of us claim that the dishes there are quite, erm....no comment. hehe...Although we not see each other for a long time, but we still very close. We chat, we laugh, we share, we wash each other. I really cant "tahan" them, they keep on say funny stuff when eating. I almost spray out all my foods and drinks. Quite an enjoyable meal...although the foods are "ma ma di". After that, we are wondering where to go on that time. After a long long discussion beside the road, we decide to go Port Dickson. WOW... i'm so excited when hearing this. HOHO...

Well, the time is around 8 P.M, my friend start to drive to Port Dickson. On the way, we still chat and make fun in the car. The night is dark, the star are bright, the feeling is so amazing. Around 9 p.m, we reach there. We just simply find a beach and sit at there (honestly, the sea there quite dirty and smelly, but don't know why we still can sit at there so happily).





Around 11 p.m, we left the beach and move to another destination. That is a midnight Wan Tan mee, quite a cool stall. hehe...Those Nilai area people sure know what I talk about..kaka...The mee not super nice but it still many students having their supper there.Then, we talk again. We talk animals this time (tiger,lion,snake,fish,leopard, insects, flowers...). Now only I realize my friend-A fan are expert in geography and those animals stuff. Quite admire him...wooooo...BUT, we still can talk so many rubbish even we already talk the whole way from INTI to P.D, P.D to Wan Tan Mee.Hehe...


Around 2p.m, we back. I reach INTI and say BYE BYE to them...I'm looking forward to their Penang trip this semester break. I can meet them again, can talk foolish with them, make fun of them, play with them. Seriously, I have a little bit touch and appreciate for their visit..THANKS o...My FRIENDS.

Somebody "TAG" me...

为了满足tag 我的人，我只好认真地答完每一题。哈哈

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1：你认为“快乐”是什么？

当心灵上得到真正的快乐与满足。其实快乐可以很简单。

2：你认为“难过”是什么？
与自己珍惜且不想失去的人分离。

3：2008你最开心的事是什么？2008年最难过的事是什么？
开心：1. 探望了我好久不见（8 年）的姑婆
难过：1. 爸爸去澳洲了

4：如果现在可以让你随心所欲去旅行，你想去哪里？

只要是风景优美的都想去。

5：你最满意自己身体哪个部位？与别人初次见面你会先注意他（她）哪个部位？

其实没有。。但却很庆幸自己是完好无缺的。 注意整体吧。。。

6：失眠过吗？你用什么办法对抗失眠？

当然！做家务咯。。呵呵

7：会不会做饭？你希望你的伴侣会做饭么？
会，但不是很expert那种。当然希望，最好是食物全权由他负责。。

8：你最想做哪个动画片角色？为什么？

Doraemaon...这是我从小就喜欢的卡通人物，希望能像他这样神奇。

9：你认为爱情的保质期有多久？
没有，爱情说变就变！

10：亲情、爱情、友情，哪个对你来说最重要呢？
1.亲情 2.友情 3.爱情

11：觉得自己是个自恋的人吗？
不是，总觉得自己很平凡。

12：寂寞的时候怎么办？
当然是找朋友啦。不然就睡觉+拼命吃。

13：上次哭是什么时候？
1 个 月前吧。。。

14：你小时候的梦想是什么？未来呢？
医生，护士，老师，天文学家。
我希望未来能读些心理学的课程，因为我觉得周旋于心理的东西太奇妙了。

15：难过的时候怎么办？
哭。。。然后告诉自己要坚强！！！

16：如果有一天，你突然被一片突如其来的黑暗吞噬，你会第一口喊出的名字是？
啊。。。。。。。。

17：如果你的异性朋友对你表白而你只想把他当好朋友，你会怎么办？
直接跟他讲清楚。。。

18：到目前为止生命中最重要的三样东西？
家人，朋友，生命

19：最想报复的人是谁？
没有

20：与男（女）友是如何认识的？
学校

21：过去的那一年什么事情对你的影响最大？
家庭

22：想什么时候生小孩呢？喜欢什么生肖什么星座的呀？男孩还是女孩呢？为什么？
29 或 30 吧。都无所谓。 最好有男有女。热闹啦。

23：你最后悔的一件事？
8 年以来都没去探望我年迈的姑婆。

24：初恋是几岁？
17

25：最近看过的印象最深的电影？
Underworld 1,2,3

26：你相信奇迹吗？有经历过吗？
相信.还没。。。

27：最喜欢的一首歌是哪首？为什么？
目前没有最最喜欢的一首。只要是好听且歌词有意思就喜欢。

28：对于30岁有什么期待吗？你觉得当时的你的生活是如何的？
期待自己有能力照顾自己与对我好的人。忙碌中带点快乐吧。

29：如果你要结婚，你结婚的理由是什么？
对的人！！！

30：说说你到现在做过的最奢侈的事情，不一定是物质上的。。。青春，精神，感情，金钱各方面都可以。。。
目前为止没有。

31：以后家庭的月收入为多少让你觉得满足了？
能养活自己，家人，有恩于我的人+投资+能买些奢侈品。

32：什么样的男人/女人让你心动？
上进心，疼爱家人，有性格，不别扭

33：最讨厌哪个星座的男女？
其实没有

34：你的性幻想对象是谁？
Michael Scofield (Prison Break )

35：你第一次觉得自己长大了是什么时候？
开始为别人着想的时候。

36：你有哪些外号？
中学朋友：假发

37：你现在的生活，与你从前想象的差别大吗？你满意现状吗？
以前根本没想过现在会过什么生活。满意但有点遗憾。

38：如果你喜欢上一个物品，却得不到，你还会继续喜欢它吗？
看情况，如果是因为钱的问题，我会设法赚钱得到。

39：能不能在部落格里写下你喜欢（喜欢不是爱）的人的名字？
太多了。。喜欢每一个对我好的人。

40：其实你喜欢男生还是女生呢?
男！！！

41：你觉得网络中的你（进一步说博客）是真实的自己吗？有没有掩饰一些自己的缺点？
当然，不然写了有什么意义？

42：我爱的人和爱我的人你会选哪个？
50 50 吧

43：如果你觉得呆在家里特别特别不爽，你会离家出走吗????
以前想过，但现在回想起，觉得自己太幼稚且很不应该。

44：如果你和你最好的朋友爱上同一个人，你会怎么做？
视那男生的选择。通常我会选择退让，因为我看重友情多过爱情。

45：你最爱什么颜色呢？为什么？
白色与紫色

46：第一次的单恋/暗恋是什么时候呢？
6年级。哈哈。。。

47：你觉得你的初恋失败吗？
失败但美好

48：说出5项你的怪癖。
1. 每一样东西都喜欢拿来闻，不管是食物还是物品。
2. 睡觉前必定做些伸展操，不然会睡不着。
3. 无时无刻都爱幻想，尤其睡觉前。
4. 用餐时，必定把菜吃得干干净净，剩的永远都是饭。
5. 喜欢把睡着的baby弄醒，然后就可以跟他们玩了。好坏吧。

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这就是我不平凡的21年生活，请多多参考与指教。

~Hurt~

Because of you, I had been so happy once upon a time;
Because of you, I had been so trust love once upon a time;
Because of you, I had been so willing to pay out once upon a time;
Because of you, I had been so idiot once upon a time;
Because of you, I had been hurt thoroughly.

Heart break? Heart bleed? Heart die? Which is the most painful?


Is it cry can solve all the things? Is it tears can fix all the damage stuff?
If can, I will try to cry as much as I can!
If it's work, I wish my tears will help me to went back again.
Went back to our big time, our fortunate, our beginning...

Love is flying away, just as we could not en jail a bird too long.
I know that when the "bird" is not belong to me, it will belong to others;
But why the feeling is so uncomfortable to let the "bird" flying to others?
Freedom to the "bird" is a suffer to me...
Let go is too difficult...
Selfish is unalterable principle!

Now, I think LOVE is bullshit! Foolish and Idiot! I don't even trust again! I just trust myself! Maybe I will trust one day if i walk out from this dark and deep abyss. But, definitely not for now...

Liverpool Football Club (LFC)

Well, I'm Liverpool supporter! why? This is because I'm influencing by my father and brother. They are Liverpool fans too. Maybe most of the people will feel weird. Weird to know that a girl is a fan for a football club. However, this is my pleasure and honor to be a Liverpool fans! And I'm glad to share why am i damn support Liverpool and the beauty behind support Liverpool! Hehe...Just as what Liverpool slogan tell us " You'll never walk alone."


This is Liverpool Anfield. Nice and grand right? I wish to step into the anfield one day. This is my dream.


This is Liverpool official club sponsorship. So, Liverpool will not bankrupt as long as Carlsberg still standing steadiness right at the world. Who dare to say that,' I refuse to drink beer for the rest of his/her life.' That's why I'm so sure that Liverpool sponsor will not as lousy as Manchester United sponsors. Haha...

By the way, Adidas is another official sponsorship. Adidas proud to supply the new footwear for Liverpool Football Club.

Liverpool Manager: Rafael Benitez, He like to use substitute tactic, no comment to him.( actually quite hate him)

Liverpool Captain: Steven Gerrard ( Midfielder), He is always the inspirational leader in the team. He is not handsome but I damn like him, like his steady, calm and soul. He is the one who always motivate his team players. He is the soul for the whole team! Without him, without Liverpool! ( quite exaggerate right..hehe..)
Liverpool Striker: Fernando Torres, He is the hope, the star, the Guinness for Liverpool. He is quite handsome but not from this photo. The way he kick, the speed he has, is the key to score an excellent goal. HE has a wonderful tattoo, strong and fit body, golden hair...all of this characteristics has been deeply attracting me to " LOVE" him. ( quite geli right..haha...)


This is Xabi Alonso, the midfielder. Quite like him too, he is good in organize and form the ball. Without him, the midfield will mess up like shit.

This is Javier Mascherano, the defender. He have the talent but quite easy to 'hot'.



This is Fabio Aurelio, the defender. He is brilliant but the injured has make him dissapear quite a long time. Pity Aurelio!

This is Ryan Babel, the talented midfielder. His predicament is not good recently.Quite disappointing...


Anyway, no matter what happen to Liverpool, I'm still Liverpool supporter! Just as Liverpool slogan" You'll never walk alone"! I believe that " I'll never walk alone as long as with Liverpool "So, support Liverpool! Liverpool, you are the best! You are my God! You are my soul!!!

@Hot@

Today was a damn hot day,everything was become boring and annoying!!!
Plus, I'm so down and in low spirits today. Don't know what happen to me???


WHY? Why?? Why??? Maybe because I had heard a damn stupid idiot story this afternoon. That's why I'm so "hot" today ( not only the weather but also the soul and spirit). That story is about a bad guy and a pity girl... ( OMG!! Not only bad, is damn stupid idiot shit guy i have ever seen. I will kill this guy one day if I could! Seems like very violence and cold-blooded right? hehe...Actually the truth is I'm a very kindness girl.)











This is the story. What is the content? Sure, I cant tell it out since this is a sad case. Just use your imagination and think any possibility that it might be. It's not tough to detoxifcation this story right?Hehe...( But quite tough to guess also,wahaha) Anyway, just guess it..( This is your assignment for viewing my blog)

Let's change a more easiest topic. By the way, there are a lot of things that i searching for, ex, love, friendship, success, money, family and etc. What I know by now is, I"m the people who not the top but also not even the lowest. I always tell myself that," Cherish all you have and content with one's lot" I"m always the lucky girl. Lucky not because I'm rich or how luxurious are my life; ( even I'm not rich) Lucky not because I'm sitting comfortable here to tell you I'm lucky; Lucky because I always know how to cherish what I have and not to complain a lot! ( many people tend to complain this complain that even they are rich and have a fortunate family. Quite silly right!!! I most hate this type of people!!!) So, next time don't ever complain to me if you are not really unlucky ok!